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Tuesday, December 18, 2012

True faith

When I was a child and at night would wake up, I would cry out to my parents.  Startled by a bad dream possibly and a sudden awareness of the dark which surrounded me, I wanted comfort.  My parents would come into the room, possibly turn on a light, look at me and I at them, and say "go back to bed, you're ok."  What security seeing my parents brought.

Jude will never see his parents.  He will never see the smile that his mother beams his way, watching his little hands clap for the first time.  He will never see the snapshots of his proud dad, captured soon after his birth, aglow with the joy of his new boy to love.  And, I wondered early, if he can't see his mom and dad, how will he grow to love and trust us?

Before I left for work this morning, I entered Jude's room to say goodbye and give him a kiss.  He had just woken up and was in his mom's arms, standing a few feet from me, when I called out to him, "Jude-boy, I love you."  At this, he turned his entire body to the direction of my voice, reached out and stretched himself my way, smiling sight unseen.  How happy I was to receive his warm, cuddly body in my arms.

It wasn't until a little later that I began to realize the gravity of the moment.  Not only had Jude recognized my voice and twisted in its direction, more importantly he reached through the darkness and trusted I'd be on the other side.  Allowing faith and love to navigate, Jude found what he was after.  What a model for our faith in an unseen God.  

Never before and not likely in my earthly days will I gaze upon the face of God.  Should I allow this to be proof enough He does not exist?  As my voice, touch and daily interactions convince Jude there is a loving soul on the other end of his reach, so too I am surrounded by the clues that God is here and God is good in all of creation.  Sometimes we must reach out, unaffected by what awaits at the opposite end, in order to reap the benefits of faith.

2 Corinthians 5:7 "For we walk by faith, not by sight."

St. Jude: Pray for us.