Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Time is on our side

When our Jude-boy entered this world and our lives, six months ago to the day, we wanted to know with immediacy what issues of health our family may likely deal with.  How would Jude develop?  Would he have other, more frightening conditions internally, hidden to the naked eye?  Oh, how these thoughts will keep a parent up at night.

Many of those fears, now replaced by new ones, have been answered through the only means possible: time.  Time, through its gift of revelation, has given us much peace about being in the thick of something and knowing that this state is but a temporary moment.  And every moment we live in that state, we move closer to clarity and healing.  No one sees clearly through tears.

As to our new concerns, when I think of them they actually give me great hope and direct me in a way in which I can only say "thank you, God."  Thank you God that, where once I feared my son's ability to move, I today can ask when will he crawl, knowing he will.  Where once I feared his place with our older sons, I now fear the three of them ganging up on their parents.  Where once I feared his ability to know my love, I worry not being home enough for him to touch my face and together share a smile.

Yes, we worry still.  Try telling a parent not to worry about their child and they'll tell you you don't get the parent-child relationship.  And so it is, we will always worry for Jude, as we will for his older brothers.  Our worries and fears aren't always pointless, though.  Consider today's fear an opportunity in six months time to see God's healing and mysterious ways in action.

St. Jude: Pray for us.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Hey Jude

Story goes Paul McCartney penned the classic hit "Hey Jude" with bandmate John Lennon's son, Julian, in mind, humming originally, "Hey Jules, don't make it bad," en route for a visit upon John's divorce to his first wife Cynthia.  Not knowing exactly what to say, the idea that one can take a potentially bad situation and make it better resonates with us all.  The song has been a favorite, even before the arrival of our own Jude.

We've already shared how our third son got his name and although we are Beatles fans, the band factors little into the naming process of our children- although we may have a Ringo eventually:)  But, the song has become another special aspect to our son, on top of many special aspects.  His name instantaneously brings on thoughts of the song, widely believed to be among the best and well-known tunes ever written.

Surely it's a little cavalier to claim such a song as our own, but maybe we'll go as far as claiming a share in its magic.  What a joyful song it has become for our house.  Upon Jude's birth and discovery of his eye development issues, we played the song to him; the first he would hear.  His brothers sing the song's first stanza in efforts to calm him when scared.  At my sister's wedding, it played while our family was surrounded by close friends and loved ones on the dance floor, with Jude in mind.

All songs take on their own meaning to those with an ear to listen.  The same is true with this song and us, once enjoyed now felt deeply through new meaning.  And, if we are not alone, and you too think of our Jude when you hear the first striking bar, we are together moved and connected by good thoughts.  As with all things, we can take a sad song and make it better.

St. Jude: Pray for us.