Thursday, March 22, 2012

Mommy's alright, daddy's alright...

I remember how overwhelmed I was when our first son Peter was born.  At 26 years of age, it all of a sudden hit me as I held this new precious life in my arms.  Everything I knew as normal would change and a version of me would have to disappear if this new life was to fully integrate into mine and thrive in the world.  There were many moments of fear, needless to say.  I questioned myself about being a good father, supporting this child and giving him the best.

Soon enough these fears would subside as days began to pass and the realization of my comfortable existence within this new normal emerged.  How quickly we forget our fears and cautions as normalcy begins to overshadow the daily grind.  But, there is a learning curve only remedied by time.  It's funny to look back five or ten years and say what did I do with all that extra time or money or whatever?  And better yet, what was I so worried about?

Jude is really no different than Peter or Thomas before him in terms of forcing our family to adjust and get on with it.  His specific challenges might be more unique than most and new in scope for his parents, but I am confident we all will settle in.  Just like with Peter, there are fears of the unknown.  Will I be able to give my son the best?  Will I be a great advocate for his needs?  You tell me how this is different from any other parent's role?

St. Jude: Pray for us.

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